I don't know when I lost that last little bit of patience. I'm normally calm and collected (or at least doing things so feverishly that I don't notice the world around me)... but the last few days have been different. People seem to be going out of their way to argue with me, about things that fundamentally don't matter. Now, I like discussions. I even enjoy heated debates, when I'm in the mood. But being questioned about my motives? ARGGGGGGGH!
Maybe it's just me. Maybe I've lost the ability recently to shrug off comments, and end up getting into arguments because of it. Maybe I'm just becoming more argumentative - but I really hope not, because I don't like the feeling of not being in control of what I'm doing.
Anyway, hopefully the feeling will pass - maybe I should lock myself away for a while. It's what I normally do when I'm in this kind of mood. Only problem is, I'm spending all day every weekday with people in the department, and the evenings in a house which isn't in the state of emptiness I'm used to during term-time. A few long walks, and listening to loud music will probably solve that though. I hope.
Just be patient with me in the mean time...
